Sometimes I dream about the future and I have this fancy idea of a good life, and then few days later all I imagine is a simple life with someone Id love to laugh with. Or even the not so far future, like weekends... The past week I have been in high society clubs, old and dirty pubs, heavy metal bar and cultural exposition all at the same week.
I guess because I was never really into the closed groups, I never really realize what am I. Am I indie, rock lover, surfer, cheerleadeelr, nerd, party girl, flirty, anti-social....? But does it really matter?
People ask me why I like to travel so much, and all I have to say is that, the diversity amuse me.
Sometimes is not even the place that catches your attention, but if you stop and realize how different are the people around you, you will find out that the world is amazing. Cuz at the end of the day it is the people that make up the enviroment around us. If you go out with sad people, they will make you feel sad even at a fun park. Of course it is your choice to go with it or not, but if your willing to be part of something diferent and be open minded you'll allow urself to be someone else, to feel diferent, to try to understand their enviroment and yet, be yourself back at the end of the day.
I dont think we ever have to choose, I personally dont like people that have closed minds... What I hate the most about commin back to my hometown is that, most of the people turned out to be exactly what we expected them to. They are dating the same people, hanging out with the same group, going to the same places, and is only 1 out of 10 that acctually surprises you, and not even a wow surprise but an ordinary one. Its sad.
They say the same of me of course, everyone will always find something wrong about the diferent. The same way they are diferent to me, I am diferent to them. "Oh she will travel forever and will never settle down, poor her, far away from family and never able to maintain a long relationship or friendship..." yeah, thats what I hear 'em saying...
I think people dont realize that, yes, travelin all around the world is the definition of happiness for me NOW, but I do have different plan for the future. My idea is that, for now, I am young, and I can do it. I can travel, I can take risks, Im not afraid of making mistakes or trying something different. I wanna do it all, as much as I can so once I settle down I ll be able to say, uau, I really enjoyed life, I really enjoyed being young. And no, Im not saying Ill stop, but what people dont know is that my higher dream on earth is to have a family. I will setlle down one day, in order to have that ideal of happiness, but traveling will always be a part of me. One of my aims is to get to know the whole world before I am 50, and in order to that happen I must travel as much as I can before settle down.
I keep on thinkin that, If I died now I'd die happy. I did everything I wanted to, and I took every chance that has appeared to me with no fear and no thinking twice. I opened up my mind and arms to a huge diversity of people and ideas and I feel pretty rich in experiences. I think that is what is worth it you know?
After all, what is life?
Life is what you've learned, life is all those moments that took your breath away.
If life is that I have lived.
Can you say it? Can you really mean it?
Have you LIVED yet?
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